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Waiting to fly like a beacon in the sky

Flattening my wings is taking strength for me to dive

I had a dream that I was an Eye looking on the other side

My heart was soft like marshmallow

My summer was fine like july

I had a kindred soul blossoming ten-fold

Waiting to dive to infant times, because now I’m pondering human life’s forms

Holding back a river within me

Only a bridge to God will set me free



Blue brick lane

If there was a wizard Oz with a blue  brick lane to grant a wish come true

I would  ask for a heart that doesn’t feel any pain to convey, enjoying stillness being faint

The walk would run as deep as the sea, in your emotions your bound to feel meek so you need everlasting friends to depart with you when the story begins

Being eyes for safety, having ears for danger

Being remorseful for my void instead of being quick to anger

No matter the time invested in a heart without pain, there will always be doubters along the way

Or unfortunate situations that had to take place

To add spice & fear if without wonder would I need to replace a heart that workd since birth

Or leave it fractured from all the misery on earth

Will my friends make it with me down the blue brick lane

Is my flesh and bones more valuable than dust particles that sweep the hard edged streets

Do I have a chance to save the beating organ inside of me?


I than start to wonder how would I see there pain if  I had a wish to change the condition my heart was in?



I left fibers of you on my shirt

and fibers of you on my neck

I left fibers of hair on your fragile chest

I left fibers on your sheets and pants too

and just like that imprints of me is left on you

I left fibers of you in my mouth we would say

and even on my back, although love was unattached some way

I left fibers of you in my heart and feet too

When i rubbed my toes against your shoes

I left fibers of you on my ear and your lips too

because I remember our saliva and tounges gliding cool

I left fibers of you in my hands, when i squeeze them tight to know your there

I left fibers of me all around you and yet there’s still more fibers of me & you

With every fiber i’m sure to lose it’s you I say I forever choose ………….
Continue reading FIBERS

A dance unforgettable

A dance with a man in a wheelchair

Brought alot of wonders and stares and even laughs and glares and even smiles with grins

If only they knew my purpose at all, as if i knew myself, at once i remember being happy with


I remember the look on the chinese man’s face , I remember his strong embrace when

gripping my waist.

I remember smelling liquor on my breathe , and looking at the floor to uncover the

slippery mess.

At best I remember being carefree, vibing with strangers in a dark serenity, with loud music and

pounding hearts.

A dance with a man in a wheelchair saved my night, it was morning when i realized I am so

greatful to be alive.

One mother

Millions of clouds formed in the sky today

Millions of birds flock together in love for praise 

Millions of tree’s growing  forever tall

Millions of raindrops scattered strangely  all over our globe

Millions of people walk the shore  everyday for peace

But for me

Only one mother here in the world wide over

That i pray for everyday when i go to sleep.

Thank you oh so beautifully for  being you


For ……….

For dishonor

the shame of my face covered me whole

For my secrets 

intended it searched every vessel to be told

For my unknown Sacrifices

keen to lust and doubt

For trust

with lack of understanding and giving up

For jealousy

I could have ruined my faith not seeing i was born of something great

For fearfulness

in truth it’s hard escaping the devil’s way

For tears

that refreshed my heart and gave me a new start

For oppressers

On every corner of the earth it was hard to see my worth

For lies

to protect my identity it made me heartsick stealing all i knew to be true

For creativity

I craved with ego and mindless choices acting childish on purpose.

For my past

I disappointed a generation and uplifted only a few

For misery 

I’m now connected to the rain I thrive and always sustain

For Love

My pride was crushed a trillion  times leaving speckles everywhere

For eyes

I lust the ones you cant’t  trust the things unpure and the fake dreams were brainstormed to get


I now know I will do anything  I can. and yes i haven’t did nothing yet .


We went down this lonely rode before

It only left open sores with flaws

The thrill of your aura is possibly scrutinizing in every way

If I unzip my heart  would you use my heart to play with your inner affairs?

Your love was  so jaded , lukewarm ,semi cool but was rare

And yet they call you thrills, you gave me the chills in a strange way

Fore if penetration would have took place  you would have jaded my pussy too

For this Thrill is temporary no comparison to love  with you

No typo like how tonuges glide in and out each’s other’s mouth  or  dividing space to lay on

a couch or  twin bead. Sweating where women was always mislead . and scratched you back  and i scratch my head because they

left you cold. And still this thrill lingers on lke a ageless soul i met in another life for

it seems to be destined to see your eyes and wipe your tears  and make marshallows out of lies

Clarity  i saw just the other day, it dead smacked me in the face , and even made a tear appear  it was then I thought why now ?

I heard no sound .

I saw no delight

Although i fight to find a cause to hold on too the thrill, because it’s one of a kind in this lifetime where every choice is your future , in dsimay i close my eyes and enjoy the ride with a spirit that moves swiftly as  I .


Limbs are heavy  with weakness that tremble my  faultless stance

I weep and crawl and fall like a infant, im experiencing this all at once

I’m fading i say, and certain possesions too, and significance in contention is wading blue

The Love we call love is fading too leaving barren words and hearts with wrath serving

pointless virtues for the use of cash. The spacious  air is fading too , leaving  fumes of

gases to destroy the plants and flowers youth and i ask myself everyday how did i get this

way?  Fading people leaving shadows or bones for ashes , the weather is swiriling effecting

masses. Fading these friends that commit to be true , they change there faces  as they

change there shoes. Their  ripeness is bitter there success is temporaray , im starting to

see everything fading in every angle  . To fragile to bear the truth , the light is fading too,

with darkness everywhere leaving only tunnel vision and fine bold letters to read and no

wonder why im poor and  so weak.s

Fighting my light to shine fore it starts to  fades away . like the astronomical days i must

live and pray and confine in I am , I am lost at destuction, pale to pain , I am lost to losses ,

heartaches for man . I am fading into a clear light , I am fading far from touch , I am much

concern with my emotions i haven’t touched, I am fading into a lie people call truth  only

leaving an imprint of me , becasue this fake place is no home for me.Each day my eyes

grow dim , leaving me to search my heart to feel safe within.




Puzzled by generations of grievance I ought to be a shadow of myself

If I was eternal I ought to remodel myself, Like god was then and today free

I am debris in the air, hearten by my life despairs

 and all go to the same place, meaning we are all dust

And will turn into dust again

Tears are disappearing but leave dried white marks on my face

I should be happy for the timeless destiny that’s in front of me yet I cry some more

This time leaving puddles on the floor, turning to rust like buildings or old age or windless

trees with strong roots that gleam and either way I’m displeased and like a disease I

keep traveling only in ruins as i fulfill my needs.

In the product of life  where fruits bear their self new wonders  I see the beauty

of treasures in this poem in this world in this idea of love in a strange way I envison

the burden I carry and release  when reminded god is always With mE +u =we 

Forever for thee eee


Backs to Backs

As we sit backs to backs and then we turn 

Sliently from lips to lips with strength to touch

hand to hand, so soft  like a fatal love song we dance.


Alluring eye to eye losing time and somehow  we watch

smile to smile fade in, face to face  with emotions

high in race, as we move our heart to heart in balance


We breathe to breathe in quiet with flesh to flesh having 

nothing to escape in grace to grace, we glide like water in palce.

Fire to fire with no pillowtalk but desire pleasure is how we get to love


Euduring pain in a rush, endearment to endearment, ear to ear  with

nothing to hear, we disappear in each others nose with a bump

and hip to hip motionless lift for a slippery touch

we swiftly bounce off air  as matter collects dust.