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Waiting to fly like a beacon in the sky

Flattening my wings is taking strength for me to dive

I had a dream that I was an Eye looking on the other side

My heart was soft like marshmallow

My summer was fine like july

I had a kindred soul blossoming ten-fold

Waiting to dive to infant times, because now I’m pondering human life’s forms

Holding back a river within me

Only a bridge to God will set me free




I am only layers of flesh, with somber thoughts wiring darts of impulses waving away without you

With depths of new life in formations of any kind, I was hoping to be alluring your posture or spending time with you everyday someway, but as chance made it were not born to be that way

Instead we must dream real hard

Perhaps stay up mighty late any day & watch the shining  falling stars

Instead we will be humble with our confusion and have faith in our despair

Because even though our love just begun we will see the bloom of our willing hearts emerging in two, pounding  with trinity and hope

Aren’t we just  layers of flesh that stick together like glue.

And sincerely I tell myself again and again I am elated to bed apart of you

We had just figured out together we are not adjusted to good byes so my love good days




I see death everyday in various ways , Could  you agree?

Like when a caterpillar dies to be free.

I see when the leaves turn brown and fall with all it’s life gone

I saw plants that died reborn

It was the color grey that seemed to stay

It was Grey in the sky flashing  very high it was lighting it was dark but it also had  alot  of spark

It was Grey in my heart & grey in the streets, it was grey all around me also in the voices of people when they speak

I saw death in lobsters when burning in boiling water for only our desires and crabs from a bucket too

I see death in our brains because some of us is vain for the things we do

I see death too my lungs everyday with no complains it’s ruined

Mostly I see Grey in every which way . Like the pores in my skin im open

Like bones from our flesh I’m broken

It was the color grey I speak of the most & when the sky changes  it’s shades, grey is what scares you like a ghost.

Blue brick lane

If there was a wizard Oz with a blue  brick lane to grant a wish come true

I would  ask for a heart that doesn’t feel any pain to convey, enjoying stillness being faint

The walk would run as deep as the sea, in your emotions your bound to feel meek so you need everlasting friends to depart with you when the story begins

Being eyes for safety, having ears for danger

Being remorseful for my void instead of being quick to anger

No matter the time invested in a heart without pain, there will always be doubters along the way

Or unfortunate situations that had to take place

To add spice & fear if without wonder would I need to replace a heart that workd since birth

Or leave it fractured from all the misery on earth

Will my friends make it with me down the blue brick lane

Is my flesh and bones more valuable than dust particles that sweep the hard edged streets

Do I have a chance to save the beating organ inside of me?


I than start to wonder how would I see there pain if  I had a wish to change the condition my heart was in?


Bible words

13563316-Christian-disegnati-a-mano-illustrazione-dei-simboli-croce-Bibbia-le-mani-rosario-Archivio-FotograficoBible words linger in my mind and I think of a cross

A pond of excuses idle under a highway drive and I think of time

A melody often replayed like a song and I think of love

Me being a shadow stretched mighty long and tall and I think of my fall

Fragments of dew from rain that was yesterday flaw and I think of the sun shining in storms

Imagine these words slip over my head and I let them go and then I think of my toes

Imagine I let the ink drip from my pen I withold and ashes burn the paper i use to write my

thoughts and I think of the years that disappeared

Bible words left holes all in my soul I had to grasp for air just thinking of the meaning

it holds and I think of god’s Plan with his right hand 

Prophecies for today and everyday and like a maze I search everyday thru clutter &  vain on a

shady lane where the trees guide you by there roots fore humans at once fade like stars……




I left fibers of you on my shirt

and fibers of you on my neck

I left fibers of hair on your fragile chest

I left fibers on your sheets and pants too

and just like that imprints of me is left on you

I left fibers of you in my mouth we would say

and even on my back, although love was unattached some way

I left fibers of you in my heart and feet too

When i rubbed my toes against your shoes

I left fibers of you on my ear and your lips too

because I remember our saliva and tounges gliding cool

I left fibers of you in my hands, when i squeeze them tight to know your there

I left fibers of me all around you and yet there’s still more fibers of me & you

With every fiber i’m sure to lose it’s you I say I forever choose ………….
Continue reading FIBERS

A dance unforgettable

A dance with a man in a wheelchair

Brought alot of wonders and stares and even laughs and glares and even smiles with grins

If only they knew my purpose at all, as if i knew myself, at once i remember being happy with


I remember the look on the chinese man’s face , I remember his strong embrace when

gripping my waist.

I remember smelling liquor on my breathe , and looking at the floor to uncover the

slippery mess.

At best I remember being carefree, vibing with strangers in a dark serenity, with loud music and

pounding hearts.

A dance with a man in a wheelchair saved my night, it was morning when i realized I am so

greatful to be alive.

One mother

Millions of clouds formed in the sky today

Millions of birds flock together in love for praise 

Millions of tree’s growing  forever tall

Millions of raindrops scattered strangely  all over our globe

Millions of people walk the shore  everyday for peace

But for me

Only one mother here in the world wide over

That i pray for everyday when i go to sleep.

Thank you oh so beautifully for  being you


For ……….

For dishonor

the shame of my face covered me whole

For my secrets 

intended it searched every vessel to be told

For my unknown Sacrifices

keen to lust and doubt

For trust

with lack of understanding and giving up

For jealousy

I could have ruined my faith not seeing i was born of something great

For fearfulness

in truth it’s hard escaping the devil’s way

For tears

that refreshed my heart and gave me a new start

For oppressers

On every corner of the earth it was hard to see my worth

For lies

to protect my identity it made me heartsick stealing all i knew to be true

For creativity

I craved with ego and mindless choices acting childish on purpose.

For my past

I disappointed a generation and uplifted only a few

For misery 

I’m now connected to the rain I thrive and always sustain

For Love

My pride was crushed a trillion  times leaving speckles everywhere

For eyes

I lust the ones you cant’t  trust the things unpure and the fake dreams were brainstormed to get


I now know I will do anything  I can. and yes i haven’t did nothing yet .


Limbs are heavy  with weakness that tremble my  faultless stance

I weep and crawl and fall like a infant, im experiencing this all at once

I’m fading i say, and certain possesions too, and significance in contention is wading blue

The Love we call love is fading too leaving barren words and hearts with wrath serving

pointless virtues for the use of cash. The spacious  air is fading too , leaving  fumes of

gases to destroy the plants and flowers youth and i ask myself everyday how did i get this

way?  Fading people leaving shadows or bones for ashes , the weather is swiriling effecting

masses. Fading these friends that commit to be true , they change there faces  as they

change there shoes. Their  ripeness is bitter there success is temporaray , im starting to

see everything fading in every angle  . To fragile to bear the truth , the light is fading too,

with darkness everywhere leaving only tunnel vision and fine bold letters to read and no

wonder why im poor and  so weak.s

Fighting my light to shine fore it starts to  fades away . like the astronomical days i must

live and pray and confine in I am , I am lost at destuction, pale to pain , I am lost to losses ,

heartaches for man . I am fading into a clear light , I am fading far from touch , I am much

concern with my emotions i haven’t touched, I am fading into a lie people call truth  only

leaving an imprint of me , becasue this fake place is no home for me.Each day my eyes

grow dim , leaving me to search my heart to feel safe within.