Waiting to fly like a beacon in the sky

Flattening my wings is taking strength for me to dive

I had a dream that I was an Eye looking on the other side

My heart was soft like marshmallow

My summer was fine like july

I had a kindred soul blossoming ten-fold

Waiting to dive to infant times, because now I’m pondering human life’s forms

Holding back a river within me

Only a bridge to God will set me free





I am only layers of flesh, with somber thoughts wiring darts of impulses waving away without you

With depths of new life in formations of any kind, I was hoping to be alluring your posture or spending time with you everyday someway, but as chance made it were not born to be that way

Instead we must dream real hard

Perhaps stay up mighty late any day & watch the shining  falling stars

Instead we will be humble with our confusion and have faith in our despair

Because even though our love just begun we will see the bloom of our willing hearts emerging in two, pounding  with trinity and hope

Aren’t we just  layers of flesh that stick together like glue.

And sincerely I tell myself again and again I am elated to bed apart of you

We had just figured out together we are not adjusted to good byes so my love good days




I see death everyday in various ways , Could  you agree?

Like when a caterpillar dies to be free.

I see when the leaves turn brown and fall with all it’s life gone

I saw plants that died reborn

It was the color grey that seemed to stay

It was Grey in the sky flashing  very high it was lighting it was dark but it also had  alot  of spark

It was Grey in my heart & grey in the streets, it was grey all around me also in the voices of people when they speak

I saw death in lobsters when burning in boiling water for only our desires and crabs from a bucket too

I see death in our brains because some of us is vain for the things we do

I see death too my lungs everyday with no complains it’s ruined

Mostly I see Grey in every which way . Like the pores in my skin im open

Like bones from our flesh I’m broken

It was the color grey I speak of the most & when the sky changes  it’s shades, grey is what scares you like a ghost.

calendar days

Calendar days seem to pass by without a trace

Without a second of your time I feel a ache

Do you always leave girls behind?

I starve my heart

I’m chasing pirates in the sky

With a melody of love permanent in my mind


Calendar days seem to pass without a trace

Without a glimpse of  your touch

Do you always leave girls in the dust?

I starve my heart

I’m chasing  pirates in the sky while it’s dark

I search for zombies and stars too

I replaced all of my fears when I started loving you

I run in sand and place the water between my toes as the sun gazes my way my heart is undone

Calendar days seem to pass by without a trace

Without a second of your time I feel my life is a waste

Do you always leave your emotions behind?

Do you risk what you can’t afford to lose in time

I strave my heart and release my mind

I’m chasing pirates as if it was art in modern times with pun for love like an angel above

I shine  leaving nothing behind dark

But you are like calendar days, with hope for change to come through not promising to you


Blue brick lane

If there was a wizard Oz with a blue  brick lane to grant a wish come true

I would  ask for a heart that doesn’t feel any pain to convey, enjoying stillness being faint

The walk would run as deep as the sea, in your emotions your bound to feel meek so you need everlasting friends to depart with you when the story begins

Being eyes for safety, having ears for danger

Being remorseful for my void instead of being quick to anger

No matter the time invested in a heart without pain, there will always be doubters along the way

Or unfortunate situations that had to take place

To add spice & fear if without wonder would I need to replace a heart that workd since birth

Or leave it fractured from all the misery on earth

Will my friends make it with me down the blue brick lane

Is my flesh and bones more valuable than dust particles that sweep the hard edged streets

Do I have a chance to save the beating organ inside of me?


I than start to wonder how would I see there pain if  I had a wish to change the condition my heart was in?



I didn’t  use the proper vision to see the signs that rested in front of my face

I didn’t have the ears to listen to a heart that was so close to me in despair

I barely discovered a way to love you and myself without freedom and your voice to hear

I barley remember the tears that were solid as the ground

All I knew is that you would always be around

Like the wind you blew away

Leaving me in shivers, coldhearted & confused feeling abused

I wonder if I was the least of your concerns & I’m glad you parted with no return

I didn’t think  this love could expand or my imagination too or that I could foresight every moment coming along with you

I didn’t think  you needed me or I you but the uncertanity of we gave us both thrills that were totally unseen

I barely remember love being this distant as a plane in the sky

I barely remember truth in your constructed lies

All I knew is that something  big always seemed to interconnect me to you

I needed to see the love for it to feel true

Instead everytime I look in your eyes my heart can never deny my love for you

I didn’t think I would get stuck in this cloud

I didn’t think our love had value to stay around